Theres no place like home

Scratch that title..in my situation my home is my hell!!..with all the drama happening i cant stand living in that house for one week..with no internet and the vibe there, pffttt~ i have to go away!!..im at college btw..never thought this place can give me some peace..surprisingly..

Things are not going so smooth there..day after day theres always someone complaining about some other people including me.*sigh* i can sense that 2010 is not a good year for me..there is only one thing good happening in this year though, that is my gf..thanx syg for being there for me :) seriously i can turn to anyone else this time..all my family is so fucked up now..cant take it anymore..i just cant wait for dila to come back :( 6 days to go..haih..

Most of them expect me to help out the family but what can i do? im still a student..even if i work part time i can help them financially..i have my own expenses..all they do is complain, they dont see it from my point of view..its hard..to be honest im falling here..i dont know how long i can stand all of this..hmmmm

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

Oh my!!..its been awhile since i update my blog.
im just to lazy to update it.
yes same old reason.
by the way im just updating since i cant take it anymore!!!
i wanna let it all out..
let it go..
garrrr~~~

I hate the college internet
My house dont have internet
I dont have enough money to pay my road tax and insurance
My license is gonna expired next month
I eat once per day just to survive
I didnt answer with confidence for my tax exam
She used all her money already and i mean ALL
I fucking hate her
I hate my life

I hate my life

I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im backkk!!

Sorry peeps for not updating my blog for so long. Well one of the reason is because i was super lazy and trying to enjoy my one month holiday recently. A lot have happened, good and bad. Lets start with the good things first shall we?

So holiday for one month. Yummy, for the first time i got myself one month holiday due to early exam. Spent most of the time with my sayang since both of us were on holiday at the same time. We went here and there, slept at her place most of the time since u know whats happening with me and my mum. Ill get to that later k? One more thing, i went to the british council education exhibition and got myself a interview with cardiff university and the guy from international office said that he'll try to make me an offer base on my previous result. Hopefully i get incase i didnt get any other offer. Im planning to apply to further my study to UK since HND is widely accepted there comparing to aussie. Pray for me so i can get the offer. I just cant wait to get out from this country. HAIH~

Now, for the drama. To update u guys, yes im still having drama with one of the resident back "home". And i thought things would get better but instead its worse now. I dont know when things will get better but luckily i still have my sisters that i can depend on and few of my friends that still have the courtesy of hearing my problems. Oh and not forgetting my dila :D Thanx sayang for being there for me. Me love u. heeee~ Another bad news though, im still unemployed!!! GARRR. How the hell they get jobs? I thought its gonna be easy. I wanna work in secret recipe but tak dapat :( Final place to find jobs will be seremban. Its kinda far but i need to make some sacrifice to get some money. HUH! Maybe im gonna go try and ask tomorrow or tuesday.

I need to start writing back though. Need to complete my personal statement for the ucas application. Need to have some kind of momentum so that i can write one hell of a personal statement so that they'll be amazed by me. LOL. Yea i know, need to correct a lot of my grammar though. I know its bad.

Still the same :(

Its been almost one month since i left the house. Attention people!! New personal record for me, for not going back to cheras. Last time the longest i stayed at college was for 2 weeks i think. Now because of this stupid drama with her, ive been living in college all weekdays and weekend at my gf's.

Honestly, i miss watching astro at the top floor.
I miss smoking at the balcony.
I miss my sisters.
And what i miss the most is my room, my bed :(

I just rearranged my room before this drama and only slept there for only one weekend i think, or maybe 2 weekend but still. Haih. My sister said just come home and ignore her. Well, the battle of the ego is still on so i dont think so im coming home this holiday although we finally get to have one month break.

I guess im just gonna play my ps2 all day long, online 24/7 and work later. Yea, the other day i was hanging out at ac and saw the banner. They gonna do a pool competition and i think i wanna enter. The grand prize? aha! RM3000 but i doubt i can go to the finals so 2nd runner up is my target. I think ill get RM1000 for that position. But fuck it, im gonna try my luck once again :P After this tournament then im gonna find a job.

Wish me luck :)

Urgh~~ im broke!

Yes people i am broke. My wallet is getting thinner this few days and i have about a week to go before i can get my monthly allowance. :( To make things worse, i have dentist appointment this saturday. SHIT!!

The WOMAN is on silent treatment and the MAN is broke. The WOMAN has cut off my allowance and i know i wont getting any from the MAN. Pfftt~~ im on my own now.

And and to make things even worse, i need to change dharmia tires since its "botak" already. But luckly beyonce concert has been postponed and i can use the ticket money to go and change her tires.

Got penang trip with the boys next month. That will be last time im using my study money. Haih!

Seriously i need to get a job soon, that is after i have all my fun. >.<

Can things be from bad to worst?

Can things get any worse than this?.Hmm, let me think, YEA!! My sister called just now when im in class. Right at that moment i saw her number,i kn0w something is not right. And my guess is once again, CORRECT! 'She' did it again, doing her stupid stuff once again.

OMG!!. Im so mad at her. I was being happy and hype up today due to what happen the night before and suddenly this thing showed up and destroy all my happy mood. Can october be so bad this year?. All the ghost, can u stop giving me bad karma? And when this problem show up, then only 'he' want to talk to me and complain about 'her'. WTF? first u ditched me, then now u want to complain bout her to me? ARRRGGGHHHH~~~

Im tired, im stress, i just cant take this anymore and i know my sisters feel the same way too. I got assignment to pass up, got exam to study and these things just make it worse to do so.

Msn today and my sister told me that beyonce's concert is postponed! wtf? i was waiting for that concert for a while now. Im so gonna get drunk this weekend. I dont care~~~

Degree?

As some people know i was planning to continue my studies in aussie but you know what they say "things dont go the way we plan it". After consulting with my sister. I think im gonna continue my degree in the UK. I know its expensive there but HND which im taking now its a lot easier to continue there. Rather than searching for a university in aussie that can accept HND.

Another reason? My grandad have a place there, so if im on holiday or something, i can live there although i know there are few strict rules i have to obey when living there. Ahh, you know how grumpy old people can be :P and my brother in law parents is living there as well. So i can go visit them on christmas or something.

Yes its expensive there, but my sister said shes gonna help me find sponsor. So what the fuck right? All i have to do is study and get good grades :) In uk, chelsea is gonna be there. WOHHOOO~~ and i have always dreaming to go eurotripping. European chicks=heaven!!~~

Checked british council website already and thank god im in time. They're gonna do uk education exhibition mid of next month. So gonna ask my brother in law what good university to study there and check them out next month. And as usual, i dont want to go alone and i know who to invite :D LZ!!. ur gonna be my partner in crime for this :)

A friendly advise

As some people know, im very close with my second sister.

Ting!
Yea,This is her, ignore me, i just got out from prison when we took this picture

When both of us were small, we used to fight with each other.
LOL, well, thats what we do when we're young.
Bully the smallest in the family.
I used to bully my younger sister too back in the days.
But now i just couldnt careless.
I do what i wanna do in my house.

So anyways, since im very close to her.
we share a lot of things together.
shes the one that recommend me what to drink .
She tells me where to go club and where not to.
Shes so cool.
thats why im closer to her.
She share her problem while i share mine.
Probably gonna stay with her if i can afford. LOL

If i know a girl, she will be the first to know.
she decide who i date.
because people, im a family man. :P
family know whats best for us.

I sound so family man.
HAHAAHA

Deja vu

Oh my effing god!.
She fucking did it again!!.
Just when things was going smoothly and peacefully.
She started to do the same things like before.

WOMAN, PLEASE STOP BEING SO VULNERABLE.
WOMAN, PLEASE STOP BEING SO STUPID.
WOMAN, PLEASE STOP BEING SO BLIND.
AND FINALLY, WOMAN, JUST STOP THIS NONSENSE.
YOUR MAKING PEOPLE LIKE ME GO CRAZY!!!!!

I dont know why she is so stubborn?!!
Im sick and tired with all this bullshit!!
The same old bullshit everytime pulak tu!!
I tell you, i know its not good to make u cry.
But sometimes things need to be handle by extreme measure.
I know we just celebrate raye recently but somethings need to be done so that she will realize that all of this crap is a big joke for her.

Someone is gonna explode this weekend =(

Cousins night out

After how many long months of not hanging out with them. One of my cousins called me and invite me to go watch a movie at pavilion. I think she invited me cause i msn her the previous day. Otherwise i dont think so shes gonna call me and ajak :P LOL..

It was fun catching up with them again. Hear whats up and about from the ampang side. Azman has become taller than me now. How shock was that? last time he was so little. hahaha

We watched dance flick that night. The movie is bloody stupid and funny. Stupid wayans brothers for making me laugh my ass off. Maybe gonna hang out with them soon. Raya maybe. Pffttt~~

Quality time with her

Last friday the whole day was spend with my sister. Yea thats her in the picture. I was lazy to go out that day actually but yea i went out anyway with her.

Went to accompany her to service her car and few shopping malls to find her a black short. We went to ampang point first but she didnt found any nice short instead im the one who bought few tshirts. LOL, then we went to nichi and finally found her shorts. chicks! 1 malls isnt enough for them. :P

Then she brought me to the saloon since i wanted to get a hair cut before we went to envie that night :D heee,

Envie was ok to me but the club is fucking cold! Knowing me, i cant stand cold and didnt drink that much cause i have to control my drinking. Dont want to be like before. You dont like me when im drunk. hahaha, After envie, her friends decided to go werners pulak for another round of drinks and different environment/music.

Suprisingly i met my friend there. The funny thing was, i was a bit tipsy that time and couldnt recognize her that time until one of her friend came baru la i prasan who was she. Sorry dear.

Before we went back to cheras, there was a bit drama between my sister and her bf. And there was total awkwardness in the car after that. haih.

Im waiting for the picture from my sisters friend but she hasnt upload it yet. So yea, the picture above is one from my collection. Ill upload the picture some other time yeah?

Malaysia vs Man Utd

The game was yesterday and i went to watch the match with my uncle. Yup, just the both of us spending quality time together :D Actually my aunty sponsored us the tickets so that my uncle can go watch the game and because im the oldest nephew in the family. My mum asked me to go with him.

So anyways, it was hell waiting for the game to start. Both me n my uncle almost fell asleep. We bought 3 burgers to eat, 2 meat and 1 chicken. The chicken is mine but suddenly my uncle cant eat meat. So he took my chicken. :( ok, that was a silly joke. hahaha, So the game started at 5.30 but before that we did get to watch all the palyers warm up just to kill our time waiting.

The game was great! well, as most people expected man utd scored the 1st two goal but malaysia manage to catch up and score one before the half time. The whole stadium cheer including me, i was up the chair and shouting as well, hahaha. Second half, man utd subs goalkeeper Foster miscalculate the ball and miss kick it, malaysian striker amri yahya manage to run faster than the goalkeeper and scored the 2nd goal for malaysia. Then i can see by how malaysia play they dont want to win but all they want was a draw with man utd but unfortunately few minutes before full time, Owen scored the winning goal.

hahahaha, dah macam commentator pulak :P But to me, it was a good game by malaysia. Although they play abit "kampung"style" they manage to lose 3-2 to one of the worlds top club. To be honest, im impressed by them. In 2001, they lose to man utd with the score of 6-0.

Go on malaysia, hope to see you guys in the 2014 world cup :P

*sorry people, no pictures were taken because of laziness in me to bring my bulky camera

Kelantan trip!!

So i found out that my dad is ditching his 2nd wife and gonna leave kl and shift to kelantan. It was a last minute thing and my family asked me to find someone to company me during the trip because we're gonna drive two cars there since theres not enough space for my dad stuff. The first choice was caped but he couldnt make it cause his dad didnt give the green light to go. Thank god my oold schoolmates willing to ditch his college and company me. :D

The trip took us about 8 hours to drive from kl to kelantan but this include our pit stop for makan2 and kencing semua. LOL, it was fun!! i drove to kelantan all by myself since my friend, joe was not that confident to drive long distance. Hes more to riding motorcycle than driving car.

I stayed at my grandma's house because she was all alone at her house but my dad stayed at my aunty's house. so yeah. :P I had fun at kelantan but the trip was more to business than pleasure so i dont have that much time to shops for stuff. But we did went to the beach, just to taste some new air right from the shore.

On the way back, we didnt used the road the one we driving to kelantan, we did detour, driving by the beach through Terengganu and Pahang. Joe and my family was saying " tak jumpe wawa ke?" right~~~ wawa was my ex back when i was 15,16 and she lived in terengganu. Oh well, that was history.

Conclusion!!, it was damn fun although the company was only one friend. I pity my dad though, he have to stay there since theres no one that can help him in kl. I almost cried the day im going back to kl. but kene la tahan kan, ade kawan kat sebelah. hehehe :P

Oh ya, heres the picture we took there :D

This is my grandma's house :D

A&W terengganu where i went dating with wawa.

Budak skuter terengganu. just for fun

Pantai cahaye bulan!!

One of the pit stop, this was at gue musang, can u see my tired face?..LOL

here's the story, lori masok gaung, due crane nak kene angkat lori tu, end of story

oh people, thats my dad. harap2 i tak botak cam die nnt, hahaha :P

Those were the days.....

OH MY GOD!!!...its been months since i've gone to clubbing with my friends or my sisters. it's not that i dont want, its just that im too busy to go clubbing and dont have that much money to go. i miss going to clubs although i told some of my friends that ive quit clubbing. HAHA, oh well, holiday is coming next month and for sure im going clubbing next month. Gotta save some money in the mean time.

I wanna save money so that i can go holiday with my friends. Hopefully to genting or singapore, or somewhere near the beach. I need some sun to kill of the stress that ive been carrying this whole semester. I know its not that much but its still stress. LOL. Hah!

I miss this crowd with iffah and nic and syahreen. We're supposed to hang out but all of us are always busy and dont have time to hang out like we used to. That night the crowd was havoc and to me, havoc equals to fun fun and more fun :D

Sunburst updates...

It was saturday and i woke up at 12.30 pm. My sister called and asking what time im coming back to cheras. She said i have to be there before 1.30 but when i reach home at 2, she didnt even shower yet and said we're going out at 3.30 pulak. Cam sial! But ok la, i had some time to rest and watch tv :D

4pm we reached at my 1st sister house and drank some beers before we head out to bukit kiara. Both my sisters was furios because erykah badu cancel her concert due to some personal reasons my ass!. We meet up with riduan at the parking space and drank some red argentinian wine he brought with him. Sempat lagi... and smoke some pot. Well, not me la, my sisters and riduan did. i met with raoul and asye on the way to take my ticket. Didnt expect to meet them there.

We went in at 6 something and our first stop was at Tuborg booth. LOL, drank few cups of beer and listening to estranged performance from there. Then we head off to the field to watch nidji perform. We jumped, we screamed and we danced! After the show, we bought some food for dinner at one of the booth and smoke somemore pot and drink some beer. Oh ya, met with fahanis there with her friend, anis or alia. I forgot, i was a bit tipsy back then. hehe.

Then, comes the nerd performance!!!, thats when the real concert begins. Their performance was not bad and i like most of the songs now. Back then all i know is only one song from their latest album i think. Pharell was cool and being responsbible with the crowd and mocking some securities and photographer. After nerd's performance, we decided to go back cause my sister was very stoned and the other one was tired.

Not me though, After i sent my sister back home, i called caped and rendezvous with him at darus, subang. I wasnt that tired but i had headache due to the beers. Hehe, hung out with caped, syu and nysa. I manage train my pool skill with caped. And as i can predicted, i can play 8 ball well but 9 ball? i need some training!!! after ac we hung out at mcd for breakfast and went back home. Reached home at 6am. Conclusion, i was out about 15 hours. GILA!!!

Pictures will be posted in myspace soon, have to wait for my sister to upload it :D

"beers+ganja+wine+kfc=one rocking concert!"

Sunburst!!!!

Newsflash people! my sister just called just now and told me that she got one extra ticket to sunburst. Muahahaha, and lucky im their brother so im gonna get the tickets then. :D But she said it depends on how well i behave to them. But no worries, for sunburst, ill be a good ass kisser for a few days. HEHE!!~~

That reminds me i have to clean the top floor this weekend. DAMN! or i might not go there. :/ Just posting this to make some people jealous. LOL, and sorry pacad, only one ticket is available.

"i guess this is my year, captain"

Thanx dad..

The other day i posted about a problem i had with one of my family member. Then few days back, i called my dad to ask him for some money. But he was in kuantan so he couldnt give me the money. This time when i asked him for some money, hes like really2 want to give me the money. When i told him i was going back to college, he was like "shit, then how im gonna give u the money?"

Well, he didnt say like that, im just exaggerating it. Hehehe, but somehow it makes me feel kinda good that he really have the courtesy to go through all the trouble to give me the money (the trouble was banking in the money) but still, before this hes not like this. I have to go to his house to meet him and have some meaningless conversation for half an hour, get the money and get out.

He called me the next day and said that he banked in the money already and he still got time to kid around with me. That was like the first time he did that since god knows when. I know its a small thing but me and my dad hardly have a proper conversation and to kidding around with him is impossible. Its not that hes strict or whatsoever, hes just to straight forward sometimes. I hope he change from now on, i liked the guy i talked to on the phone the other. Hes different :)

"I was dissapointed u chose that decision but i miss u"

Family portrait

March begin with a family crisis. Im not gonna tell why we have this kind of situation but i just feel like spill it out here. Just to release it. U know what they say if u keep in ur problems they can make u crazy sometimes.

Anyway, the air in the house is not the same as before. This fight was huge between us and her. We tried to explain to her but she wouldnt listen. She rather be on her side of the line than standing with us. Oh well, shes like that, we cant do anything anymore, we did what we could. Its been one week now and the awkwardness makes it even worse.

Its not easy to live in one house with the one we fought. its easy with a small fight but this one, this is huge and totaly different kind of story. I just cant wait to go back to college and just leave all this behind. I dont like to think about it. It makes me feel kesian at her but what to do? shes so f-ing stubborn!

Hopefully she doesnt do anything like the past. Who wants to see our own flesh suffer?

"it doesnt make u happy but we do"

Trapped in the house!

With no plans ahead and most of my friends busy with their own stuff, i have locked myself in my house and stay in my cocoon for quite some time. I want to go out but theres no companion that have the same idea as me so i wind up in home most of the time and only go out when my pack ciggies is empty.

My mom been sick recently though, so thats one of the reason ive been staying home. Take care of her and took her to the clinic, be her driver to buy some food for my sister. and yet she still can be mad at me for something, but what to do, shes sick and her behaviour on top of the list was cranky. What to do right? just let it go....

Since im stuck in the house 24/7, ive kept myself busy with downloading some series and some series i mean chuck season 2, gossip girl season 2, one tree hill season 6, and heroes season 4. So who ever wants some episode, lai lai, skype me pronto! ahahah

Peace out!

7 Feb 2009

That day has come once again. The day that was i brought into this world, the world full of dramas, memories good and in pain. YES! im turning twenty this year on 7th of february 2009. Ive been living in this word for twenty years now and i have seen a lot of things in my life, Both i like and dislike.

A number of people wishes me on that day and i forgive them who didnt wish me cause i dont wish some of my friends too sometimes. Even my dad finally wish me for my birthday. Well thats because i remind him by asking for some money to buy present. Kalau tak, im sure he wouldnt wish me but remember or not, im glad he wish me. After how many years, he finally did. Atleast he tried. I thought of making a list who wish me but when i open up my facebook and myspace. Its just too hard to make the list. LOL.

I cherish my lifetime so much and when my birthday is coming ill be so damn happy and of course a bit sad. And i also tend to make a big deal out of my age. Like last year, i said to all my friends, 19 was gonna be the last year of teens for me and this year, when im 20, no more teens at all.

My teen years has been a blast. Hook up with my first gf when i was 13. Learned how to drive when i was 14 and got my first french kiss when im was 15. HAHAHA.. SHOW OFF!! :P hopefully lots of good things will happen to me in the future.

Sorry there was no proper celebration for my birthday this year. I dont want to be cliche and do bbq again like last year. Plus im all broke. My birthday eve was celebrated on top floor of my house on a couch watching tv all night. I was so tired with assignments and test before that night and didnt have the strength to plan anything or go out anywhere. But i managed to do a small gathering at ac and i hope all my frens were ok with that. Thank you for coming to ac guys, especially lily. Demam2 pun sanggup join.

Oh and not forgetting the suprise dinner pacad TRIED to do for me. hahaha, but thanx to lily, pacad, naim and caped for doing that. it really mean something to me :) and Ling for doing a post about me. Thanx babe. Y'all are gud frens :D

my birthday cake

Thanx guys!! :D

and not forgeting this guy. Thanx for trying

Oh ya about the present, i got a swatch irony watch from my first sister. I got a shirt from zara from both my 2nd and little sister. And my mum was forced to buy an engine for my car. Sorry but thanx mummy :D Supposedly my mum wanted to buy me a camera but she had to buy new engine so bye bye camera. Oh oh, and i got a kiss on the cheek by ling before she went back. HEHE :) (nak jugak bagitau kan)