To be lifeless or strong, that is the question

Today someone called me and told me he is in penang
Playing black jack, gambling i assume.
What else you were doing in hard rock hotel.

In my heart, i was like WTF bastard?
You were in kl and u didnt tell me.
And the next thing i know, you're in penang gambling?

I know why u dont wanna tell me you were here.
I know ur scared that ill ask something from u that u dont want to give.
I know u can but u dont want to.
Thats why you've been avoiding me all this while.

I was suppose to be imune from all this crap already
This is not your first time doing this
But yet im still sad.

I dont like u anymore.
I dont care bout u anymore.
FUCK YOU!
Just fuck off and die will u?
Thought of relying on u
But now i can see it clearly, i cant.

Its hard enough that i have to deal with the current problem.
And u just make it worst for me.
Thanx alot.